Apr 3, 2016

A little clue about me

I'm the type of girl who will love you, but only when I'm ready.
I'm not the type of girl who will sit around and jump at the first person who shows interest in me.
I'm not the type of girl to go out and look for love.
I'm not the type of girl who fears being alone.
I'm the type of girl who will love whole-heartedly when I meet the right person.
I'm the type of girl who will care for you, treat you well, and let you know how much you mean to me.
I'm the kind of girl who always wants to love deeper if I think I should do that for the right person.
I want to learn your strengths and weaknesses.
I want to know your favorite way to spend Sunday afternoons and what you like to do in thunderstorms.
I want to know about your childhood and how your past shaped you into who you are today.
I'm the kind of girl who wants to know every little thing about you.
But I'm also the girl who will stand up for myself, everytime.
I won't let you push me around.
I won't let you walk all over me.
I won't stand for being treated any less than I know I'm worth.
I won't let you tell me what I can and can not do.
I won't let you try to hide who I really am in front of your friends, or even your family.
I'm not the kind of girl to hide in the background.
I'm not the kind of girl to sit back and watch you do all the work.
I'm the kind of girl who hates anything or anyone that tries to control me or belittle me.
I'm going to be next to you.
I'm going to sitting by your side.
I want to be sitting by your side.
I want to walk hand in hand with you through every step of the world.
I will stand by you when things get tough.
I will support you when you don't know if you can handle what life is throwing at you.
I'm the kind of girl that will never make you question if I'll be there for you.
I'm the kind of girl who will make you challenge yourself.
I'm also the kind of girl who will push you, who will help you strieve to be the best version of yourself, to live up to your full potential.
I won't let you sit on the sideline and let life pas you by without getting in the game.
I want you to know how strong you are, how great you are.
I want you to love yourself like I will love you.
I want you face your fears and I'll be by yourself the whole time because I know how much growth cab come out of looking fear straight in the fave and working through it with you.
Most importantly,
I'm the type of girl who will love you with every fiber in me.
But I won't put up with your shit.
I won't beg you for your love.
I won't beg you to be mine if you don't want to.
My universe will certainly not go incognito on me because you left.
My heart won't stop pumping blood because you said "no".
I was not born into you.
You are not the air I breath.
We do not share the same lungs.
You have to understand,
If you're looking for someone to beg you stay.
If you're looking for someone to beg you anything.
I'm not her.
I will make you feel how gentle my love was again until you became numb of it.
I will ask you about what changed and what happened to me in your eyes.
I will listen whike you tell me how everything you loved about me slowly became things that made you turn away.
How our stubbornness has became a complete refusal for compromise.
So believe me, when I say you do not complete me.
Because when you go, I will still be me.
Not the sane her, but still the whole me.
That's the kind of girl I am.

AZS